I know right now you’re probably lying on your bed wondering how to get the boy to join you, stop.
I know that as the nights and weeks progress you will fall deeper into that abyss and pull away from any of the connection you crave, don’t.
As you lay there I guarantee there are others that don’t even know what they are missing out on. I promise there is a lot more out there for you, even if you can’t quite justify it yet.
You know where this is heading you just need to take the leap.
I know right now as you lay there you are struggling to express your hardships. you feel like a buoy floating in the despair of the unknown. Wait.
You don’t have the answers, maybe you never will, but it will sort itself out and you will find people to support you.
I dare you to break the ties that you know are holding you down so that you can form new ones that will satisfy you to no end.
I know you are lying there wondering why the contact you do get isn’t satiating you. Why it doesn’t feel right and if it will always be like that. It won’t.
You will have more bad experiences to come but eventually you will realise friendship and nights of whispered connections are key.
A whole new world is waiting for you and you can’t even imagine.
I know you think you don’t have it in you. That spending a day with a pad and a pen is useless. It isn’t.
You will find projects that you love and work that allows you the freedom that you crave.
This world will open up and this world will come alive.
I know right now, in that bed, you feel like if you could get his attention everything will be okay. But dont wait around for it. It will take you awhile but eventually you will realise how much you can still have when you let it all go.
Wait for it, I promise you are going to love it.